And just like the dawn of a new day, or flu season, Positively Minutiae has returned. It's been an interesting journey getting to this point. I drafted a few 'I'm back!' posts, but never felt like they were 'Publish' button-worthy. They just seemed to ramble on about laundry and dog hair - which are, for better or worse, major parts of my day-to-day existence. But, I felt like there was more to share - I certainly had more going on inside my head than that and I spent
weeks months trying get my thoughts to line up in some kind of logical order so I could assess my situation and get clear on where I was at this point in life. And in between dinner, laundry, family schedule coordinating (which is, at times, like working in the air traffic control tower at a major airport), dog walking, dog hair removing, vacuuming up dog hair, picking up dog poop, buying/throwing dog toys (guess who got a new dog for Christmas?), grocery shopping, toilet cleaning and the like, it hit me. I'm at a weird place in life.
This age.
Mid Late-forties. I don't feel old, but I don't feel all that young either. My kids are in high school, we have college tours on our calendar now, and I have what some consider to be gray hair although I prefer to look at is a more of an ash blonde, thank you very much. I see a lot of road behind me. But I also like skinny jeans, I like strappy high heels, I text (
with emoticons if necessary) and Instagram, I listen to current music (although I will never understand dub step) - I'm not at the end of my road. I even want to have another career. It's a great/scary/exciting/worrisome/fun/challenging place to be in life and I think that it's highly under-talked about. I'm hoping Positively Minutiae can fill that gap.
I know I'm not the only one at this place in life. There are a lot of us out here. But we're under-represented in the blog world. When I search the Internet, I can't seem to find blogs talking about this strange and wonderful transition period. There are a ton of sites for little kid moms - I must say, there simply aren't words to convey how very glad I am that I had Eliza and J.D. before the pressure of Pinterest-worthy parenting became a thing. And there are a surprising number of blogs for fashionable, fun retirees. I think it's so cool that someone well into their AARP subscription would jump into the blogosphere - kudos. But, as far as finding something aimed at those of us in our mid-forties or fifties? (crickets)
It's strangely like being a teenager again - stuck between childhood and adulthood - only now our zits are wrinkles and we find ourselves parenting through curfews and finals and varsity games; knowing all the while this is only a temporary stage and we'll need to fill a big space in our lives when those activities are no longer a part of our family calendar. It's a happy and sad place, but a place that if experienced with as much peace and presence as we can muster, we'll emerge from satisfied and ready for the next chapter. I think.
As usual, I will continue to try to find the humor in it all and to always be grateful. On that note, I'm off to defrost some meat.
gratitude: the smell of Otis' (our new dog) neck, quiet mornings with the kids home in bed, a clean kitchen, quality hand lotion.
thanks and love.
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